My sister just got done completing helicopter lessons and was ready to fly on her own. She invit d me for a ride. We took off but as soon as she did, she over did the levers and we went upside down. I panicked in fear, but she was so nonchalant about it as if it was no big deal. She corrected and we were right side up again, but she was shaky with the levers and the helicopter was never stedy, constantly wavering from left to right. We ended up upside down again. I was afraid we were going to crash and die. I didn't want to die at the hands of an inexperienced helicopter pilot, sister or not. I asked her to land and she did on a big frony yard lawn in Evanston. I told her the truth, that she was shaky and I didn't want to fly with her. She started crying and was upset. I told her she needs way more training and practice and that I'm going to get out. I told her she would have to return the helicopter in her own. She said she would just leave it where it was. I told her she couldn't do that and that this was someone's front yard, plus the propellers were sticking out over the street. I was afraid that she was going to be mad at me, but I had to tell her the truth. We ended up in a coffee shop on Main St. and I bought her a drink. The next scene was about Grace, my step-mother. She called to tell me that my son jacked up the bill on my phone plan again and it would be around $350 or $550. I told her I though she had cut off his phone last time when this happened and she said she hadn't. I was frustrated because if she had done that, I wouldnt be liable for paying hundreds of dollars. The next scene was me sitting in San Diego by the bandshell near Seaport Village on the Bay. I was miserable, it was hot, I wasn't dress d for the weather and I didn't want to be there. As much as I said or I thought I had loved San Diego, I guess I meant more the mimountains and the desert and not sitting with drinking and overly social concert dwellers trying to have a good time. I was supposed to have gone on to Hawaii, but despite all my planning, I realized I never booked that part of the trip. I had taken a helicopter ride from San Diego to either Coronado Island or Santa Monica Pier, something on the coast. Once I landed, I realized the helicopter didn't go all the way out to Hawaii and I would have to get a separate plane ticket there. I sat in a picnic bench near the Hornblower cruise docks and looked up flights on my phone. Last minute flights to Hawaii were up to $419. I didn't want to pay that. I thought maybe it might be better if I visited Alaska to cross that off my list and return to Chicago after. Prices were around $325, close to what they would normally be. I was present to the fact that I fantasize often about moving back to California, but then now that I am there, I don't like it and I didn't fit in with the people anymore than I do in Chicago.
Dreams can express a wide range of emotions and situations from our waking life, often reflecting our fears, desires, and unresolved issues. Let’s break down the key components and their potential meanings in your dream: 1. **Helicopter Ride with Your Sister**: - **Symbolism of Flight**: Flying in dreams often symbolizes freedom, exploration, or a desire to rise above a situation. However, the instability of the helicopter indicates feelings of apprehension or anxiety about taking risks, especially in relation to your sister's capability. - **Sister’s Inexperience**: Your feelings of fear when she is flying could represent your worries about her abilities or decisions in real life. It may also reflect a need for her to gain more experience in her current life endeavors, indicating a protective instinct that you have towards her. - **Conflict and Truth-Telling**: The confrontation about her performance and your need to express your feelings suggests an underlying issue between you two. This could represent a desire for open communication and honesty, even when it may lead to difficult emotions (like her crying). 2. **Coffee Shop Scene**: - **Gesture of Support**: Buying her a drink signifies your willingness to support her despite the previous conflict. It shows your care and desire to maintain a positive relationship after addressing concerns. 3. **Frustration with Your Stepmother**: - **Financial Stress**: Dealing with the phone bill indicates feelings of frustration and helplessness regarding financial matters or responsibilities. This could represent concerns about control or boundaries within family dynamics, particularly regarding your financial obligations. 4. **San Diego Setting**: - **Feelings of Discontent**: Your discomfort in San Diego, despite having initially liked the place, suggests feelings of disillusionment or a realization that what once appealed to you no longer fits your current self. This aligns with broader themes of belonging and identity, where you may feel out of place, whether in California or Chicago. 5. **Hawaii Trip Plans**: - **Unmet Expectations**: The realization that you didn't book the trip to Hawaii, followed by dealing with high last-minute fares, mirrors feelings of disappointment or a fear of not being able to achieve your goals despite your planning efforts. This may resonate with other areas of your life where you feel a lack of control or sense of urgency to act. - **Potential for Change**: The thought of visiting Alaska instead may symbolize your desire for new experiences or a change in your current life circumstances. It indicates a search for fulfillment and excitement in your life, possibly looking for a situation that feels more aligned with who you are. Overall, this dream appears to reflect themes of familial relationships, personal fears, financial stress, and a quest for belonging and fulfillment. It may be urging you to confront certain feelings about your relationships, reevaluate your current life choices and environments, and consider how you deal with stress and expectations in your life. Taking note of these themes could provide insights into your current waking life challenges and emotional states.